Thank you for sharing such a wonderful story. I too lost my pup 6 months ago at 14 years old. Its the hardest and most painful experience, I cried for weeks uncontrollably. I still do today when I talk about it. I wish I could say the feelings go away, it gets easier but the feelings will always be there. I sounds to me like he was very fortunate to have you, just think about the great years you all had together and know he is watching over you and always will. Im sorry for your loss, I hope you feel better soon.