Report I thought I did my homework in General Border Collie Discussion Posted July 16, 2013 I don't want anyone to think that I think I have made the "right" choice or that by posting I am trying to justify it to myself. I merely stated that I made a choice, one that I'm still not entirely sure about and one that I may or may not ever be sure is the right one. I don't think any part of any of my posts attempts to justify my choice. It's merely an explanation of how I came to my conclusions in the first place and how many of those were eventually proven wrong, mostly by my own ignorance. Much of my second post was to explain some things that I thought were a bit unclear in my first post. I posted to share my experience with others. Even though I'm embarrassed to admit that I messed up, especially to a group of people who are so passionate and so knowledgeable about the breed that I love, I hope that someone who goes through the same thing in the future may see where I messed up and avoid the mistakes for themselves. I posted to hear advice and experience from others, even if it's snappish and critical. You all have given me much to think about, and still thinking I am. I'm sure I will be thinking about this for a long time. Liz, surprisingly the one I know is CKC is black and white. They have a blue merle, a red and white, and the rest are black and white or black/white tri. To their credit, they don't place emphasis on color, which was another reason I was confused as to why they were breeding CKC litters, I would think that would be only for color. Gloria, most of those are still red flags for me. Picking the puppy from a photo isn't as much anymore since many people shared that it is a a fairly common practice even within the working community. I know that the logical thing to do would be to nix this puppy right now and wait for one from a better litter from a more reputable breeder. Liz, it's not because of my friend that I am sticking with this puppy. As I mentioned before, the reason is very personal. It has to deal with family and as much as I value everyone here, it is not something that I want to share with people on a mostly anonymous public forum. It leaves me very emotionally invested in the situation and in this puppy even though I haven't met him yet. I'm not sure I'm strong enough to overcome the emotion with the logic. It's not something I'm happy about, but it is what it is. I realize that this puppy could be very unhealthy and that I will be investing a lot of money in him if that's the case. I realize that he may have major temperament issues that I will have to deal with. These are things that I'm aware of and will do to give the puppy the best life possible. I know that this is a lesson learned and in the future I will work my hardest to not make the same mistakes and do the absolute best by the breed that I can. As I said before, I appreciate the responses and appreciate the time it takes for you to read and post them, even when it seems like I'm not listening, which I know is what it must seem like. But, again, I really do take all of this to heart.